So, I have always known I am a deeply competitive person. What I didn’t realise is how powerful this can be as a motivating tool.
The gym I have been going to over the last week or so has a couple of interactive bikes. They have a screen with a simulated race. Suddenly I am able to work up a hearty sweat on a gym machine, something I fail to do with any enthusiasm normally.
Chasing riders around a course somehow motivates me in a way that simply watching my heart rate increase fails to do. It is an utterly meaningless competition and I am fully aware of that, and yet it works. I have had a few awesome workouts.
So, I am left asking myself – how do I best use my competitive spirit?
I know that it is a dangerous beast. To quickly it turns to the desire to outdo others; or I fall into the trap of thinking that my performance defines my sense of identity. Both paths are deeply destructive but curiously alluring.
How do I harness this most useful force?
I think I will do better to try to use it and fail miserably than to avoid it altogether. I’d rather keep falling off the delicate balance, than to miss out on following the drive.